Tuesday, September 9, 2008

~~You don't want to know my secret thought today~~

Well, I'm having anxiety at the moment. I am stressing on my stupid hot water. Do you know they still don't have this fixed. About ready to do some major cusin. I came home from school yesterday, and the closet doors where my hot water tank is was open, and stuff still sitting around it, so I knew he would be back. Not to mention he tracked in poo poo(in which I had to clean up before doing anything else) in on his shoes or something. Anyway, he still has not came back to fix. I so can't wait until the end of October so I can move out of here. When I first moved here, I thought it seemed really nice, but now, not so. Its loud, and they don't fix anything. Oh, the people above me usually both take their showers around noon. I hear it dripping in my bathroom. That problem started back in March, and not even going to mention it to the landlord again. I am so done with them. Man, why can't I just have an easy day, just one. Sometimes my days start out good, like yesterday, but then something happens, and upsets the apple cart...lol. School was good yesterday until I came home and found no hot water yet, and dog doo doo on my carpet. I did go to my algebra class last night, but got up and left a half hour early. That was my birthday present to myself. Now I'm getting anxious about going to school tomorrow. On Wednesday's I am at school all day., plus I have 2 quizzes in which I haven't studied for yet. I'm reading blogssss. To bad my quizzes aren't on blogging friends, I would ace it. Tonight is "Big Brother" night..yahhh. Maybe that will take my mind off school tomorrow. I can't find anything cute to wear tomorrow. I have to try and fit in with all the younger people ya know, and I'm having a bad hair day. Hair is frizzy...yuck.

Still trying to decide whether to send my friend (the one I believe put a gift card on my truck the other day for my birthday)a birthday card. His birthday is on Friday, but I don't want to get anything started with him if I can't finish it, you know what I mean. The last time we had something going I broke his heart because I could not get away from my daughter's daddy. Still the same problem. So, not sure if I want to go there right now. I don't feel like having all that pressure on me again like I used to have all the time. When I was living with my daughters dad, he drank all the time, so I felt this need to find someone new all the time. And i usually did. And I broke a lot of hearts doing so. So now, I feel relaxed not worrying about 2 men all the time. I was so wanting to get away from my daughters daddy and wanted attention so badly, I would find it, then give it back to them when they started wanting me back. I know that doesn't make sense. but that's what my life was like about 4 years ago. Now, I keep to myself. Like not long ago, I ran into a man I used to work with, but we never went out or anything. It wanted to give me his number, in which he did, but I never called him. Like I said, if there was any one man I would call it would be "the one" the one that put the card on my truck. Oh well. If its meant to be, it will be, only time will tell.
Well, I feel the urge to try and study for those 2 quizzes, I don't want to fail. Plus I need to go the Hobby Lobby and but some foam core for one of my art projects that is also due tomorrow. No wonder I am having anxiety, all this stuff due, and I am sitting here on my computer. What am I gonna do with my self?
God bless you all, and have a great day!!!


Christine said...

Wow, when it rains it pours! I hope that your next day is much better, and it always makes me feel better to write it out on my blog. Thanks goodness for Big Brother....I'm rooting for Dan!

Mommy Mia said...

Been there, done that!! My hot water heater broke several months ago and flooded my house! Luckily we have no carpet in our hall or living room!! It was a mess!!
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Angie said...

Ugh!! No hot water - that's the pitts! At least you probably don't live in the country like me, we totally run out of water once in a while... It's awful when you can't flush! (They are in the process of getting water to us though, just a few more weeks!)

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Karen said...

I feel for ya. I hope things get easier.